SOL: Avanti

Let’s pretend that when I asked for space
you opened your arms to give me the moon and
stars, that I’m not still picking at remnants of scars
wounds I retreated to tend to and aspired to heal

Let’s say that when I left, you crumbled under the weight
of your own misgivings, the things you wish you would have said in the
moment, memories that will eat you alive until you surrender
into a state of perpetual craving

Let’s play a game and omit that I’m not the only one basking under
the full force of your affection, as if all my professions were true
your lips are multifaceted acts, singing lullabies and sweet fallacies
fake friends, repentant lovers, things better left unsaid under covers

Let’s envision a way this ends in peace –
we both know it won’t be with your arms wrapped around me.

3AM Thoughts // AKA “Every day she falls more in love with someone new.”

SOL: L’envie

My teeth are clenched and my mind’s limits are
Being pushed into the ether – I wonder,
Does she know what it’s like to need her?
She draws me in like a tidal wave
Her smile reflects like a car crash with
The windshield smashed – somehow, she’s
Still got the last laugh

3AM Thoughts // AKA “Poor Fool.”

SOL: Aventura

In the time since you left my
Hair has grown longer and lighter than
It ever did when it was wrapped in your hands
I’ve been kissed by faceless lovers against medieval walls, under
Stained glass windows, doused with prosecco from greedy mouths
Laid myself bare in the Mediterranean sun
The adventures you once swore we would take
I took, I didn’t wait, I scrubbed the tattoo
We got from my skin and covered it with another
Expunged the wicked taste your tongue left behind and
Found solace in the knowledge that even
After all this time, it’s my laughter dancing
Endlessly through your mind

3AM Thoughts // AKA “I Passed On Patience When They Were Handing Out Virtues.”