SOL: Introduction

I only wish you
could see how much I have changed.
I hope you’d be proud.

3AM Thoughts // AKA “Haiku 129.”

MIND: Repetitions

the courage it took to get out of bed each
morning
to face the same things
over and over
was
enormous.

// Charles Bukowski

MIND: Serpentine

I once watched a snake shed his skin. Discomfort apparently alternating with relief, he stretched and contracted, stretched and contracted, and slowly, slowly pushed himself out the front end of himself. His skin lay behind him, transparent.

The writing of these notebooks has been like that for me.

// Anne Truitt

MIND: Revolt

The most important kind of freedom is to be what you really are. You trade in your reality for a role. You trade in your sense for an act. You give up your ability to feel, and in exchange, put on a mask. There can’t be any large-scale revolution until there’s a personal revolution, on an individual level. It’s got to happen inside first.

// Jim Morrison

MIND: Habits

Habits are powerful, but delicate. They can emerge outside our consciousness, or can be deliberately designed. They often occur without our permission, but can be reshaped by fiddling with their parts. They shape our lives far more than we realize—they are so strong, in fact, that they cause our brains to cling to them at the exclusion of all else, including common sense.

// Charles Duhigg