SOL: Bungled

laughing at my own
shortcomings, the electric
flourish of defeat

3AM Thoughts // AKA “Haiku 136.”

MIND: Shortcomings

If you feel okay only when life is happy and easy-breezy-beautiful Cover-Girl, then guess what? You are not free. You are the prisoner of your own indulgences, enslaved by your own intolerance, crippled by your own emotional weakness. You will constantly feel a need for some external comfort or validation that may or may not ever come.

Everything is F*cked: A Book About Hope // Mark Manson

MIND: Unplugged

The education system is not designed to turn out thoughtful individualists, it is there to get us to work. When we come home exhausted from the inanities of our jobs we can relax in front of the inanities of the TV screen. This pattern, punctuated by birth, death and marriage and a new car, is offered to us as real life.

Children who are born into a tired world as batteries of new energy are plugged into the system as soon as possible and gradually drained away … Those who have kept their spirit find it hard to nourish it and between the ages of twenty and thirty, many are successfully emptied of all resistance.

I do not think it an exaggeration to say that most of the energy of most of the people is being diverted into a system which destroys them

Money is no antidote. If the imaginative life is to be renewed it needs its own coin.

Imagination and Reality // Jeannette Winterson

SOL: Doomed

Offering up flesh like
Unholy sacrifice, baiting sinners to sink their
Teeth into something richer in the hope it
Leads them into damnation

I can’t help toeing the lines of decency
No one is as good as you think they are
No lips are as soft as you expect when you
Plummet head first into them like a trainwreck

3AM Thoughts // AKA “You Lost Me When You Slipped Into Consciousness.”

MIND: Expectations

The glass ceiling of happiness is held in place by two stout pillars, one psychological, the other biological. On the psychological level, happiness depends on expectations rather than objective conditions. We don’t become satisfied by leading a peaceful and prosperous existence. Rather, we become satisfied when reality matches our expectations.

The bad news is that as conditions improve, expectations balloon. Dramatic improvements in conditions, as humankind has experienced in recent decades, translate into greater expectations rather than greater contentment. If we don’t do something about this, our future achievements too might leave us as dissatisfied as ever.

Homo Deus: A Brief History of Tomorrow // Yuval Noah Harari